This passion of mine, this love of writing and literature, will not be commodified. For the longest time I haven't been motivated because I'm not making money from writing, but now is the time to get back to it. To free my soul the way it did all those years ago in school.

I've been thinking lately about how to get more organized. I want to start writing in a physical journal again. Handwriting notes is the best way to remember things, apparently, which I believe has to do with repetition and motor memory somehow connecting to and crystalizing information. I don't know, I might have just made that up.

At any rate, I've been researching philosophy and literacy lately. I learned that before literacy we basically had to memorize everything. That's one of the reasons poetry was so important, and oratory was the only way stories and history could be passed down, so the memory of the ancients was impeccable. We would probably consider them superhumans today because of how much they could retain. Plato, in his dialogue the Phaedrus, made a fascinating argument against literacy. Through the character of Socrates, he argued that writing would make people forgetful because they'd rely on external marks rather than internal memory. He also warned that written words become like orphans once they leave their author, because unlike a living dialogue, a text can't defend itself, explain itself, or push back when misunderstood.

So I say all that to say: since I don't have that great a memory, I think it's better that I exercise this ability like never before. I've always loved writing. I would be so distracted in school because I'd be writing poetry during class, writing notes in my journal. But somehow along the way I stopped doing it as often. I mean I'd come home and really write in my journal ritually. I want to get back to that.

The coolest thing about writing is that it's basically recording. Literally offloading your memories, your consciousness, like saving it to the cloud. In some cases literally, if you're using writing software. In the case of a notebook I guess it's more like a solid state drive. Either way, I think it's important for me. I think a lot of the reason I haven't been as creative as I need to be, or at least as I used to be, is that writing was fuel to my imagination. And the further I got away from it, the less creative I felt. This could also just be a part of growing up and drowning in responsibilities. I definitely felt more creative when I didn't have to worry so much and be in constant survival mode with all the adult pressure. But at least now I realize I need it now more than ever.

I don't want to be discouraged by not getting views or it not connecting. I just want to get it out, that's all. And who finds it cool and who doesn't, that's cool too.