my baby should be here with me. he should be curled up on the bed, enjoying this short and beautiful life with me. licking his paws, leaving wet marks on the red comforter. he should be looking up at me, with a glimmer in his eye. enjoying the peace in this new home. gazing out the window with me. waking up to my bird alarm.. burrowing in the covers to avoid the world next to my warm body. instead, your soul lives out there in the atmosphere. are you in the heaven I hope to graduate to..