This past sunday, my friends and I ran our first ever marathon. 42.2 kilometres of running - either away from or towards something (depends on who you're asking).

For me, I ran towards accepting the stage of life that I’m now in. Maybe I also ran away from things I thought had been left behind. As the concrete ate away the foam of my shoes and the rhythmic patter of each step mixed with my 3 hour long ambient playlist (mostly Malibu and ESP), I couldn’t help but feel the same type of exhaustion that would’ve come from a really good summer night out - euphoric, but tinted with the feeling that moments like this are fleeting and meant to be lived in the present.

Recently, a friend said that it seems like I’m so “up” and they’re proud of what I’ve accomplished in the past few months but I always have difficulty accepting those compliments. I appreciated it more than I let on. I've long carried a bad habit of thinking too far ahead and of missing the present while I'm already planning the next thing.

At mile 20, my leg locked up. Searing pain ripped through my left thigh, and the possibility of not finishing was fully on the table. Coincidentally, also where a tattoo commemorating friendships that no longer exist sits. For someone who had planned every gel, every nutrition window, every training block, this was something I couldn’t have planned for. Forcing myself to slow down and switch my cadence, I lurched forwards again slowly but surely. By the last 10 kilometres it was just willpower to move.

The planning didn't save me at mile 20. But it put me there. And I think that's the thing about making your own luck.. it's so mundane it barely feels like anything, it’s like breathing air . Its nothing it means nothing. You just keep showing up until one day the odds quietly shift in your favour and you're too tired to notice.

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Horses don’t stop, they keep going
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